You will have good and bad but when it's good relish it, when it's bad kick it's ass, no one can define you but you. No one and I mean no one can hurt you or screw with you unless you allow it.
talk to Zelda or Emma. Emma is a little odd but she is a elemental vampire, she thinks highly of you and just says you are impatient. Zelda is right in your face.
If you can't laugh at all the seriousness then screw em if they can't take a joke. I received three infractions and I wear them proud. LOL. Take care, stay out of trouble.
I am an introvert myself & a bit of a naracissist, now I do believe that I have changed a bit, well only the introvert part has become less. I find myself to be a machiavellist as well, aren't we all a little? Its hard to survive in a dog eat dog
world without being shrewd & a little manipulative.
I feel every emotion very deeply be it happiness, love, hate, anger, sadness. I also feel extremely restless, anxious & impulsive. Another thing which is very discomforting for me is a sense of confusion, disassociation & a feeling that I am just drifting, you know being too airy.
My true will, I have not found. I would say I am still introspecting. However, I did come to know about something which was ground shaking for me, I will tell you about it in a PM at EM or BTG.
Ah, so nice to meet a man who is not afraid to shed tears! Being a hopeless romantic & a hypersensitive person i would regard crying a wonderful thing but I haven't cried since 4-5 years,I guess I should sometimes but since some time I find it silly & melodramatic.(With all due respect to you & I guess its self-contradictory of me but such is my nature). But it would be great to cry if the moment was appropriate. I take this back, it would be great to cry if I just felt like it, no need to find a reason. & no need to adhere to the society's expectation of being a macho alpha male.
I was just given an infraction for inappropriate language, what language? I never said a curse word. It must be a pick and choose thing here, if they like you they let you get away with murder, if not they ban you or give you infractions. When Zelda was here, she was fair and didn't pull these stunts. It is sad to see the forum destroyed.
I read between the lines here, and there is no one that really knows what it means to be a true occultist. They talk from a well written script and if pressed try their best to get out of it. It is why. Emma and all have lived the experience you don't get in a book, and have many years behind them, yet they are always there to help with very little ego.
