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TheLost
04-16-2010, 03:01 PM
Ok I know this dounds like i'm trolling but please believe me i'm not. I need help, especially from certain individuals (with a special past) you'll know who you are. It started when I was around six, being 24 now. I kept having dreams (not of earth or even the physical) where I would run away deserting my kin but eventually get tricked into dying anyway by my "brother" (only child btw).

Ok this persisted until I eventually gave up and did a ritual to invoke Herne (or Cernunnos or whatever being at this time Wiccan) this seemingly worked and I became convinced that I was infact the one who killed me. In other words I was my "brother" in the past life - we were not even the same type of entity I don't think.

Ok, now despite the guilt of being a traitor and a murderer which has folloiwed me into this life I am now starting to halucinate (at least thats what the doctor calls it about Herne even in broad daylight. He appears as tall but highly deformed humanoid, bald with dryed skin and burn scars with the antlers being only very short. I would try to draw him but i'm not exactly a good artist. Ok this was ok and I went on meication for both depression and the halucinations. The depression being caused by the halucinations. However recently (past 2 months or so) the halucinations have developed not only do I see Herne but also other disfigured things, I can't even begin to describe and whats more they have begun to physically harm me (scratches bruises even a bust nose and lip - nothing serious but I expect this to get worse over time. The thing is people at work have even seen these things happen the bust lip and a ripped coat for example but when I asked whether I self harmed or something they just say that I go into a trance and it just happens like a ghost did it.

So anyway please if you have any recollection of such a past life or even feel you don't belong, have any experience with hauntings or possession, or even just with demons or Herne or whatever please contact me at [email protected]. Please hurry though i'm not sure how long I can last out.

Thankyou.

P.S. I know how mad I sound so if you think I am please feel free to say so though don't email me with such opinions.

HeavenlyBlues
04-16-2010, 05:51 PM
That's fascinating that co-workers have witnessed phantasmal injuries. Maybe you could put up pictures of these somewhere?

Whew, where to start with the rest. Well, I would say that first of all that this is some story you got here. Before you talk about invoking Herne, you sy you gave up. What did you give up on? I will always be new at the art, but I do know that performing magic as a quick fix after giving up on an endeavor adds negativity to the outcome.

As I was reading your post I got a little confused with the "brothers" and past life. Maybe it's simpler (and possibly more sinister) than that. Perhaps these are two parts of you mind, or your subconscious that were trying to construct a narrative framework for what is going on between them through your dreams. Everyone knows how it is to feel torn and have internal battles. But in your desperation you turned to invoking an entity you thought was safe, Cernunnos, but you got Herne instead (of which, Odin is probably the most likely candidate for an ancient wild hunting figure for herne to be based on).

Whether these two entities are derived from each other is irrelevant. Herne is his own idea now, fostered through folklore. He is now a ghost that, according to wikipedia, carries claimed souls around with him. He could be taking your fear and misunderstanding of a dream you started having at six and using that to drive you mad, to drive you into his snare. Herne is a hunter-archetype, and these hallucinations and phantasmal cuts may be psychic bait to corner his quarry.

Magic got you into this, and especially dealing with an entity like this, it may be what you need to get you out. You first need to reconcile with this "evil twin brother" aspect of your psyche so he has nothing to bend you to. This is very important as this experience is what anchors him to you. Then you need to drive him from your life. Try to invoke something like Riki-Tiki-Tavi to guide and protect you. A quarry animal that is capable of rising up and killing his hunters.

Hope this was any kind of help.

devakxes
04-16-2010, 07:16 PM
An important thing to keep in mind is just because the spirit LOOKS like The Horned God does not mean that he IS the horned god. Keep in mind that there are horned spirits out there(for example, satyrs). Also to keep in mind that spirits can shape shift in order to conceal their true identity.

This could be a very complex thought-form or various other entities.

As of the brother thing... are you and your ''brother'' just different aspects of the same ''being''... but individual conscious aspects of the same being?
That's what I got from that.

I'd say banish the god. Deities flourish off of our belief and love in them... stop believing in them and they go away ( most of the time ).

HeavenlyBlues
04-16-2010, 07:24 PM
Definately do some kind of banishing, whatever works for you, but also definately seek to address the "brother" aspect of your story. It was a source of distress before Herne, and it surely is not helping the situation.

HeavenlyBlues
04-16-2010, 08:41 PM
Bullfrogs, you remind me of a more incoherent version of the man that taught me how to drive a big rig, but that's a story for another day. And, really! This is not a time for the Hell's Angels, but a time to rid this poor soul of the scourge of Herne!

I am quite flattered you think I'm an HA though.

TheLost
04-19-2010, 10:02 AM
Thanks for the advice but when I tried the ritual it got worse I keep finding dead rats around my house and outside i'll send pics ASAP this is getting serious whatever it is its really really powerful or at least its mademe really really weak.

devakxes
04-19-2010, 06:49 PM
I guess we'll have to get elaborate.

First you should learn basic shielding and or warding skills. I'm sure somewhere in the energy work section of the forum they talk about shields.
Wards include putting energy in the walls of your home with the intent of keeping something out. Make sure to saturate every entry ( including vents ).
The other idea to keep in mind is to get rid of it with something antinomian.
Antinomian being '' lawless/godless/beyond nature''... So in this example, Herne is a God of the Earth. In this case taking earth and desecrating it and calling upon the power of Man to rise above the earth ( Belial, Tetragrammaton, any death deity- minus the hunter ones like Gwynn Ap Nudd from the celtic mythos... uhhh... I'm sure there are other deities that personify man above nature.) and then either channel that energy into an attack against Herne or ask the intelligence responsible for that energy to go and get rid of Herne.

I think another question is why do you think Herne is after you?

TheLost
04-22-2010, 03:25 PM
I made false promises

actually I no longer consider this post to be necessary as I have come to a revelation, I am wrong, and he can have control now his will is the only reason and through his reason madness will become sanity and sanity shall be eradicated and through our misery his seed shall rejuvinate the mother and she shall become one with the father and with get him away out whatever just please please please stop it i cant do this anymorre i;ll just let him have me

you have been a gracious host and the lord of party and all that is wild thanks you to him a toast: that never will he lose his mask for without it we may never know his wisdom you shall see the reckoning ong before I for I choose not to see it I am weak

TheLost
04-22-2010, 03:27 PM
please give me the name of an exorcist or an experience witch or something now