I need some help..and advice

[AGONYmercy]

Okay I have been studying meditation, chi, chakras, kundalini, aliens, almost everything esoteric since i have been 12/13 years old...I am 19 now I had always knew i was suppose to 'do' something in this world..but not like everyone else i cant describe it. Anyways the supernatural is not so super to me i have been subject to visitations from spirits and other entities as well as having gone to some higher dimensional level where there is nothing but pure brilliant light and the feeling of ...it was indescribable positive pure compassion/love. About last year on december 21 2009 i was visited by about 2 or 3 beings that i could not see but i felt. it first happend by me being gently pulled down my bed (I swear to everything I love I have nothing to prove here i do not know where to turn to talk about this) I was in a state of sleep paralysis but as often this happens to me i am able to break out of it, as i broke out if it, the being which i did not sense was evil spoke to me well more or less telepathically. When this first happend i thought it was an angel talking to me about the spirits in the room but i was scared/angry and talking **** to the spirits about leaving me alone. They told me and called me by another name which i believe to be my True Soul's Name, and they told me "...We will give you the power but you must promise to use it for good" I swear to the highest of high the holiest of holy the purest of pure that is what was told to me. As the 21st approaches (and its going to be a full moon as well) I am anticipating they're return and I dont feel they are bad but i have questions relating to they're proposal, what is the power?? What constitutes for good?? WHAT DA **** IS GOING ON?? Im sorry but it kind of gets me aggravated. please someone help me give me some advice on how to handel this situation.....

[devakxes]

Welcome to the forums. I'm sure each person on here could give you an explanation of what they think is happening but the only one who will truly know is you.

My suggestion. I don't trust Angels or anything that desires me to bow down. They work towards their own ends.

Good = progress, without screwing anyone over too badly.

[AGONYmercy]

thank you very much i appreciate it lol i agree with you 110% i will not bow to anything unless its the One Who Created ME and the Universe but God wont ever ask for me to bow in the first place especially if im working under the Creator and the Universe's Will. I think you may be right i was mediating heavy before the experience actually that night i had the most powerful mediation im my life, do you know that point in your mediation when your inhale and exhale is EXACTLY the same well i stayed in the mode of consciousness for quite some time and all i seen was light inside me it was beautiful i was perfectly at peace i felt like......a calm cool sun of some sort lol it was the best i would slip in and out of it but i would be able to go back to the feeling it was great then i feel asleep and woke up being pulled my bed but it wasnt like violent it was gentle. after that nite it happend for the next 2 days then it stoped. one incident happend a couple of months ago where some entity woke me and i felt a weird energy in my chest it was weird honestly I have been feeling that i will take the power I need to help these humans i know i did not come here to have a family and have a job and live a mediorce life. The feeling i get from helping people has always made me feel like that was the reason i wsa here like its what gives me purporse. thany you both for your advice take care ill be aorund here
Love + Respect!

[darkmistress]

Just out of curiosity, have you looked into theories of quantum entanglement and the possibility of higher dimensions? I think maybe on some level the mind is a tangible substance, but that doesn't mean that things we imagine are actually real in the world. Law of Attraction, you attract what you desire. If you feel these "beings" aren't what you want, simply find other ways around them. Gravitate toward the beings that you want in your life, and then they will become a part of it. :)

IMO I believe everyone is like a version of the universe, and only that individual has the resource/or key to unlock hidden desires and dimensions.

[Passthebill]

Well I hope that whatever happens on the 21st makes you a better person and don't be afraid when it comes and certainly don't fret or be nervous! Drink lots of tea and water, healthy fruits and veggies you want to be in good physical health when the 21st rolls around.

[AGONYmercy]

lol yea i do believe in higher dimensions actually i found out that there ill also be a lunar eclispe on the 21st hmmm something is going to happend that day i believe it will be global, i was told from a kaballah shaman that 2012 is not happenening and the date as actually 2010 and the shift to the 4th or 5th dimensional level will occur this year Im not sure weather this is truth but it can also be a possiblility.

with love and respect!