Ridiculous

[sinenomine]

hello everybody. i don`t know how to begin so i`ll get straight to the point(*lol). the last long relationship i had was 7-8 years ago, i just can`t seem to get over her, i`m 23, that`s why i say ridiculous, i was very young then. in my mind i thought this whole time that only 2 years have passed, recently i saw some pictures with us dated 2002, but i think that date is wrong, anyway, first year in highschool. i just realised that for one reason or another i`ve been destroying myself all this time, this is not importand, but she always is in my mind. i think very few days passed without me thinking about her, this heavily intoxicated, but even then, i f****n hate her, i love her, i`m hooked. when i`m with other girls i treat them like her, try to revive the moments spent, few that i remember, all the rest are hidden somewhere. i would write more just to show you how ridiculously absurd this is, i`ll stop. anyway, she used to practice spiritism and others maybe, with a girlfriend of hers, i don`t know really, i was and still am very skeptical about this. so i didn`t care to know. once she convinced me to invoke Ariel, no ideea who that is, i found it ridiculous, with us touching some thing and moving it around asking questions. she used to talk to me about spells, with closed locks thrown in rivers and stuff like this, i usually just ignored this. once we were smoking some place and she pulled some of my hair out, i tried getting it back just for arguments sake but didn`t succeed. we were 2 lunatics in love. we almost started fighting for this, phisically, pulling each others hair and stuff, i wanted to get some of hers too hehe damn memories. i was very gelous and stupid mostly, but i saw things, and interpreted, maybe wrong. so i left her and got back together a few times, the last time was cold, i can still see her leaving with wet eyes, i was feeling pretty much the same, but i used to drink, i don`t cry. i still drink. anyway, now with this situation i thought about asking what you guys think of this? would initiates think that i`m under some spell, or just stupid? sorry i wrote so much, it`s for me mostly, i can tell someone about it, annonymously. i backspaced a whole lot too hehe. leave opinions or do whatever ye like. cheers!

[Astral Eye]

Your ex was talking sense by the sound of it. I feel sorry for you, really I do. But cherish the good times, and move on. If you want to work with spiritualism, I may be able to help with bits.

Good luck

[sinenomine]

Your ex was talking sense by the sound of it. I feel sorry for you, really I do. But cherish the good times, and move on. If you want to work with spiritualism, I may be able to help with bits.

Good luck

well, i don`t know who was talking sense, i wrote a lot anyway but it would be to much to write to properly explain what is not important. thing is, it feels pathological, and i`m sick of it. no reason to feel sorry, thanks, it`ll pass somehow :D as for spiritualism, i`m not gonna start working anything just yet, it`s my first night, but when i do i`ll appreciate the help, thanks :D cheers!

[sinenomine]

anyone have any opinions? are there any spells that can do this?

[seekerofprophecies]

Using drugs, and unclean foods while engaging in spiritual activities can be extremely detrimental to yourself and others around you. I would advise against it. You need to let go of your girlfriend, it sounds like you may need to grieve about it, you see you keep trying to find your girlfriend in these other girls, you will keep experiencing relationship problems until you deal with letting go of your current girlfriend, perhaps it may even be helpful for you to talk to her.

Ultimately I think you have an unresolved issue with yourself involving her or just yourself. It seems like you don't want to let go or are not willing to let go, you are holding on to her.

So you need to think about how you can let go of her, it could be something as simple as crying and moving on, you have a lot of emotional mnemonic attachments to her, so seeing her and talking about these things may be beneficial either that or you are going to see her and try to patch things, the question is why did you end the relationship in the first place. So you need to figure out why you ended it, and also why you keep holding on to it.

[sinenomine]

well i guess you`re right about everything. i wasn`t thinking about doing anything myself, i was wondering if she could`ve done some spell or something to keep me miserable, as revenge, or something. she has this sick way of tormenting me from the outside, then it`s all over. it`s random, she IM`s me like once or twice a year, we talk about stuff, this is like heroin for me, then i don`t hear about her again. she wrote to me a couple of days ago, but i ended it very quickly so i don`t get all stupid afterwards. once i was in the hospital, after i got hit by a car, and she came to visit with some friend of hers, we were separated for a long time already. we spent some time together, talking and stuff, then when the visit was over i went to see them to the stairs, she turned around and kissed me on the mouth, then she gave me some kind of smile, turned around and left. i remained stoned. she never visited again, i had to spend quite some time alone in that shitty hospital, so i had time to chew on it. afterwards it all was like nothing ever happend. i find this pretty hateful and sadistic.