Pnouthis, I do understand what you mean about lower magick becoming less important to you. I suppose what you are saying is the Universe flows with you naturally without any sort of 'specific' lower magick of your own to change things? This does make good sense.
When I was younger I had the glorified ideas. Now they are more realistic but I do aim high, no matter what the opposition. I truly wish to fulfill myself, or self-actualization, in the fullest sense of the term. By sex, I mean sex between two people. To me, true love with another person is MUCH more important than sex. Although to be single and happy is also beautiful. There are so many who cannot live life alone and still be happy/fulfilled. I still have many seeds in life to grow. Books I want to write, places I want to travel, people I want to meet, things I want to do, etc. First and foremost, at the present, education.
Good luck to you too in your military aspirations.