Thread: Hello

It seems every few years I visit the occult online community out of boredom. Its 5:33 am where I am, and its dark and quiet now. Very peaceful. I don't know what to say...I used to post to the occultforums.com...which doesn't seem to exist anymore..probably some of the same people here, I'm guessing.

I work at night. Its more difficult finding a night job that is legal and pays well, but I did.

Its not that I don't enjoy the sun, its just that I find the night more peaceful, probably do to most people sleeping. The stars and the moon are so beautiful and I have always loved how light reflects from water at night.

Some people are afraid of me, because they think I have an anger problem, but its not anger at all. I just find that when I scare people, I usually get what I want. You'd think it would get me into trouble. That's what I thought, but it seems to work out in my favor, and so encourages me to behave like that more. I used to think I was nice, but perhaps I'm not really. I don't care either way really. I am what I am.... Don't you just hate stupid phrases like that? "I am what I am" Retarded? It's the same as "It is what is is" or "for real," or "for rea, for real?" OMG, stop me before I break something. Anyway....I don't hurt people, just scare them occassionally. Most times I tried to avoid them, but when I can't I usually end up scaring them. I don't even really like occultists that much. They think they know every damn thing.

Anyway, my new year's resolution is to try to stop scaring people. I've already gotten a head start on it.....I've been nicer lately.

OK, it was nice writing these thoughts here for people I will never know, but it was enjoyable thinking about who may or may not read this.

Yeah, I think I have multiple personalities...something about if you think you are crazy you aren't, but what if one of your personalities thinks you are and the other doesn't? Then what?

lol, I dunno....have a good one. k, I can do it...here goes...

Nice to meet you! (See, that was a total lie because I haven't met anyone here yet, but it socially excpected or accepted or some junk) I'm working on it.

Welcome, you don't scare me, in fact nothing scares me. If you are here to contribute, then do so, if you are here to troll, don't! I like the dark, and frankly most people have more than one personality, so you are not alone in that.

Originally Posted by ZeldaFitz

Welcome, you don't scare me, in fact nothing scares me. If you are here to contribute, then do so, if you are here to troll, don't! I like the dark, and frankly most people have more than one personality, so you are not alone in that.

I'm not here to troll. But, you see, you're already educating me. I told you occultists think they know everything.

I was being honest and thought you would appreciate that. Just because I don't like occultists doesn't mean I'm not civil. I like occultists more than I like most others.

Serves me right, though. Lying to people always seems to work better than the truth.

I'll be good, promise.

Though, I doubt I will visit often.

EDIT: I hope I didn't make the impression that I came here to scare people. As I explained, I only scare people for personal gain. I'm selfish that way. I have nothing to gain here, so there is no reason for it, besides I find the idea of scaring someone on an online forum ridiculous.

Trust me, the least of our worries are you trying to scare us using electrons over the internet. Welcome to the forums. You never know, if you stick around, you might find something that interests you!

Yes there is something for every one here.

Merry Meet.

hi ya and welcome.

I must have been in a dark mood when I wrote this introduction. To clarify, I don't just go around scaring people on purpose. What usuallly happens is I'll be in a conversation with a person who will try to take advantage of me, and then I scare them almost defensively, and end up getting what benefits me rather than what they would have had happen. I'm working on controlling that defensive mechanism and become a bit more passive, because the truth is that I don't enjoy scaring people, but its almost as if they bring it on themselves, because I'm perfectly civil unitl that moment when someone tries to mess with me, then something happens that I am trying more to consciously control, but whatever it is scares the crap out of people. I actually had a supervisor run away from me saying he was going home, but then two hours later came back and had given me more than I requested to appease me. I don't want to be like that, though, but it does seem when it happens I get my way.

I'm actually working on being more passive. Most people I observe are very passive, and let people take advantage of them and use them without saying a word about it. I'm almost the complete opposite.

I have actually tried to just remain silent sometimes, and it never fails that each time I try I have five different people asking me about something. Sometimes, I just feel like saying stop talking to me, lol. But, that would be rude, and I don't want to be rude either.

I read your first introduction and now your later posts. Are you sure you are the same person?

Originally Posted by ZeldaFitz

I read your first introduction and now your later posts. Are you sure you are the same person?

lol, yeah, that is what I figured. I am a nice person. I hate to see others suffering, but lately I have noticed a pattern of people either being afraid of me, or actually telling me, "they were probably afraid of you."

I say lately, but I remember in my past people saying the same types of things to me, "they were probably afraid of you."

So, I've been thinking on it, and I think I sometimes scare people when I'm not trying to. I don't know how to explain it. I'm just trying to control it, but it is very difficult for me, it seems.

Other people are not afraid of me at all, and warm right up to me, telling me I'm one of the only sane people around.

My friend is an occultist and he actually witnessed this happen once, and I asked him about it. He said he noticed that I was being very civil and polite until the man I was talking with verbally attacked me. My friend told me that after the man had attacked me that is when I went off on him, scared him, and he actually ran away from me.

I don't seem to scare women like that, though. I think it is an Aset thing. I can't do it. It is always men.