Thread: Hello!

Hello everyone

I am a 26 year old woman from the Northeast US. I've been interested in LaVeyan Satanism for several years now after being introduced to it by a friend, who told me "real Satanists are not made, they are born." i definitely feel this way. While doing my research, I realized I agreed with all of the concepts. Finally, a religion that actually made sense to me!

I grew up Catholic and went to Catholic school for a few years. I always felt extremely out of place and scared of God. Going to church and reading/watching religious Christian stuff made me feel anxious and panicky, instead of fulfilled and peaceful. I had so many questions as to WHY we were supposed to believe these things the church taught, and why certain seemingly-harmless things were wrong. Why was being gay so wrong? "Because it's an abomination." But WHY? "Because it says so in the Bible."
My questions were only met with these type of responses. "You're not supposed to question things. You're just supposed to believe this is the right path, thats why it's called faith."

A major turning point came around the time i lost my virginity. My ultra-religious parents found out and made me feel so awful and guilty about it, like I was a horrible person for doing it. At first I felt guilty, but then i started to become angry. What was supposed to be a beautiful (and highly personal) rite of passage was ruined by this pointless guilt, and i felt seriously robbed of the experience.
That's around the time I started to think for myself: what was the point of even living if you're not supposed to indulge and enjoy the things life has to offer? It just seemed that these rules produced a lot of unhappy lives full of guilt and paranoia. I didn't want to live with all this debilitating guilt. Those who actually followed the rules often seemed sad and brainwashed, like their personalities were muted I feel sorry for these people, people who have lived their life with the purpose of being a good person, but along the way lost many pleasures in life. Most of the others were complete hypocrites (who I think are assholes! Lol)

So here I am! Sorry for the rambling! I am happy to have found this online community of others who are not afraid to think outside the box. I enjoy intellectual discussions that raise thought-provoking questions, which is exactly what brought me here So I look forward to learning more!! *Cheers*

Hi

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I am pretty much MAD @_@ LOL! Or at least my mates say so but hey, so are they!

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