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Sometimes i have the urge to just destroy everything and anything, as of the last 3 years this has been going on. I thought it was because of the spiritual beings that I thought were as my pets/guardians. For the last 2 in a half years I haven't had them here because i thought they were the reason for my issue, but now I'm always angry or cant seem too stay on track or anything. What should I do.
Are you acting on these urges?
Im not sure about most but the ones i do act on i cant rember doing what had been told to me of what happened.
I'm always like that. The feelings can come from a number of sources or be pure randomness or be from neglecting your destructive side. As for self control, perhapse a sense of humor can help. I don't know, I still havent figured it out myself. do you smoke? Try quitting. Consider your rage to be like teething. Here's a poem you might find helpful...
Hater
You make me ill you turn me bad
I see your face it drives me mad
I watch you turn the world askew
despise the cancer that is you
in your shortcomings pride myself
in your misfortune is my wealth
my world is bleeding as I wait
I'll always have something to hate
addicted to the hate inside
my hit list is where you reside
accross your face I draw the line
the grapes of wrath make sweetest wine
in ecstasy I drink it in
indulging the beloved sin
you wonder what is wrong with me
this hate inside just sets me free
I dont smoke, not much of a fan of anything, of the nature.I write stuff too, but i save that for my web sie and another one I am a memeber of..