Need direction & guidance
"Here I sit, a foolish bore
no wiser than I was before
No dog can live like this
knowledge gained is far from bliss
So I resolved my soul to free
through blackest magic and dark alchemy"
The above words describe my condition, I got into the occult a year ago but I still think that I need some path/direction.
Honestly, I know what the problem is, the problem is not lack of resources, its actually having too many resources. With so many books to read & so many practical exercises to perform, sometimes I feel I am just skimming off the top & never really delving deep. Yes here is where I am going wrong - just skimming everything but not really going deep into it. Its mostly coz of my restless nature I guess. I hope some can feel what I do.
Coming back to the 'direction' part, out of so many books & options available how does 1 choose anyone?
Here is what I have been upto
meditatiing daily, remote viweing, sigil magick, used to perform the LBRP.. soon going to try astral projection..thats it. Should I add something more?
I hope I don't sound like I am asking for spoon feeding.
I think a good way will be to only select specific areas of occult & focus only on them instead of skimming over everything. & keeping targets for e.g in so & so weeks i have to finish so & so book & make a daily list of rituals/magickal exercises to be performed.
The problem here is more with me being disorganizes I guess.
Thanks for reading or contributing