Hi, I'll be lurking around your site for a while...

Yea, Hi. My name is 3(Well actually its not, but thats the name I use and abuse on the internet) and I am an aspiring occultist. Not to envoke the flames of "You no not what you do", I am fascinated by the darker aspects of magic. Namely demons, daemons, spirits, curses, your basic teenage angst stuff I suppose. Now, I'm not an idiot, and while I am incredibly fascinated by the darker magicks, I have no intentions of casting any spells for a while, have out of fear that the spel will backfire, and the other half that I'll get caught by my parents.

I have expierience with chaos magick, its one of the few things that I truly connect with in the occult world. I sometimes explain to a friend of mine that it is the science of magic, you try, you fail you move on, or you succeed and you add the sucess to your bag of tricks. However, I have yet to have a sigil work for me, although one time I did have a servitor complete its task, but that might have been a fluke cause I haven't been able to duplicate the results.

I also have a small background in hoodoo. The symbolism is simple to understand, and in the articles I have read, it doesn't warn about dire consequences for using magic to get a little payback.

Anyway, as you may have picked up I live in a christian home, but even at a young age I was drawn to the dark, but only deep enough to where I could flee at any time. I'm 15, I'm bisexual, and this is just one more hobby I hide from my parents. Although I probably won't be an incredibly active poster, I do intend to read as much as I can, and if I ever have a question I will post it without hesitation.

So yea, thats basicly me.

Welcome but,

Don't take offense you seem very immature magickly speaking. I mean yes great that your curious about the occult and whatever path you follow and yes the whole Christian thing is a problem. I know magic is very popularized in teenage cult movies and it seems really easy to them. No, its like any other craft they work at it, constantly adjusting and testng. From what I'm reading it looks like it didn't work because you still hold doubt in your spell and abilities. Get rid of it, by the way sigils are meant to be FORGOTTEN thats why you destroy them in the end process.

In any case Cheers,
Tansen

Welcome to the forum! And don't be shy to ask questions, that's what we're here for. BTW, did you know 333 is the number of choronzon (AKA Gonzo)? Try looking him up. And being 15 does not make you immature, most of us here have a lot to learn and you can include yourself.

Welcome.
we are all here to help each other. i'm also a teen, so you are not alone. if you have any personal questions, feel free to email me. :-)